My english is not that good , I really cant think about any adjective to describe how I feel . I really get lost . I dont have any aim for right now , what is my purpose for living ? Sorry to tell you that , " I dont know " .
I got a job in engineering factory , you know how childish I am ? I thought I will learn something about engineering in this factory , but finally what i learn is just 8 hours sit at there , and keep on using the sand paper to rub the iron that manufactured by the machines . == Ya , it is a good skill ...==
Before spm examination , I was really excited for my new life after graduate from secondary school , but now I really miss my school time . I will appreciate any chance to study , I promise , but my dream to become a doctor had gone , I really hesitate for what course should I take , and I dnt have confidence that I will be selected to study in matriculation . Form 6 ? Good choice , but .....I dnt plan to do that for no reason .
Nowadays my life become very boring , everyday wake up at 7.30 or sometimes 6.30 am , so tired man , then after work for 9 hours and sometimes 12 hours there , I become very sleepy , so I dont have any chance to touch computer , and I already 3 weeks didnt see any newspaper , if you ask me what had happened recently , sorry , I really dont know . I plan to improve my english , because I realize that english as the international language play an important role in our daily life , but , I dont have any time to study for the temporary english course , and there is no 1 willing to speak english with me , so I just do like a mad person , keep on talking to myself .
Many things had changed . It is not what I expected before , my relationship with friends also vary . Some become not so close with me , some are in national service , and it is always very hard to choose whether to accompany friends or girl friend . For me , both are same important . But , some of my friends keep on blaming me for not go out with them often . Omg ....While I am free , there is no 1 invite me for out going , but when I already decide to go out with my girl friend ,they call me == ....Please , I think you all understand what type of person I am , I am really sad to hear that some become dislike me for this childish reason . I am a weird person sometimes I will become moody for no reason , but I already try my best not to express it on my friends , family and of course my lover . But sometimes I am really get crazy ,please let me alone for a while and dont treat me so cold . Before I get couple , I am a selfish person , my benefits always come first , and I wont ask others to forgive me , but I had tried to be a good boy friend, dear , I love you so much , you are a good girl friend , I just hope that sometimes you will give concession , ya , boy friend must be gentlemen , but I am a human being also , I got feeling too . I really hope that our love can last forever , I just wanna to be with you right now ... I cant make promise for the future , but I promise , you will always in my heart , I really love you .
Finally , it comes to the end . Actually there are so many things for me to write down , but I am really frustrated , I am getting older , I must be mature , there are so many different things that I need to learn and accept in adult's world . Hope that I will understand the situation and make a choice for my future . This time , I will think wisely . Take care , my friends , appreciate you all ...Hope we have time to reunion again . Bye ...
